Aug 20, 2012

Falling Out of Love with Twitter


I used to write more, before I got addicted to technology. I was going through my old journals from elementary school, pre-cell phone, and saw that I wrote so many short stories and poems. The excuse I tell myself is that I don’t have time, but that isn’t true. I do have time, but I am wasting it reading tweets and looking at Willow Smith’s Instagram. The amount of time that I spend on my phone scares me. The amount of time I see other people on their phones makes me realize that what I’m doing isn’t important and I shouldn’t be wasting my time. Getting invested in other people’s relationships just makes you feel bad about yourself and maybe feeling bad feels good sometimes.
I read into technology too much and it makes me sad. I take every “like” and “follow” personally. I take everything personally in real life as well, so maybe it isn’t different. Constantly having something to do like check Twitter, Facebook and Instagram makes me feel like I don’t have time to do other things like write or read. I feel like my brain is getting smaller and I cant think of any new ideas to write about. Sometimes when I start thinking about things that make me upset or I feel like I am thinking too much, I go on my phone to shut my brain down. I have been thinking about checking my phone the entire time I have been writing this.
I put so much pressure on myself to make sure my writing is good (whatever that means) that I stopped. I gave up and got involved in social networking. All I think about when I don’t have my phone is checking it. When I don’t have it, I don’t feel safe. (I secretly think one of the many reasons I didn’t like summer camp was missing my phone and feeling disconnected.
Why do I tweet? I like twitter because reading about what other people are doing makes you forget about what you have to do. I like Twitter because it makes me laugh. I like Twitter because it informs me when something important has happened. I like Twitter because it makes me feel closer to celebrities that I know I will never be close to. I like Twitter because reading about crazy things other people do makes me feel normal. I like Twitter because people are so  nice to me and it makes me feel happy.
I hate Twitter because it consumes me and I never stop thinking about it. I hate Twitter because it fills my brain with sad news and events. I hate Twitter because people are so mean to me for no reason and I don’t understand why. I hate Twitter because it exposes me to disgusting people who bully others. I hate Twitter because when I get mean messages, I like to look for mean messages about other people I like, because it makes me feel better, like I’m not the only one. I hate Twitter because it makes me jealous. I hate Twitter because it makes me feel bad about myself. I hate Twitter because it makes me feel good about myself.
I bet I will tweet this article.

18 comments:

  1. Hi there. I think you gotta accept the fact that these social networking sites are not going anywhere and it will continue to grow. I think what you should do is to control yourself as to how much time and energy you want with it, or else you'll go crazy and it can take over your life. I wish you good luck :)

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  2. I feel the same way about twitter/facebook. I love reading blogs as they are mostly intelligent (hey, sometimes you need to follow blogs that are dedicated to pictures of food/cakes) and I don't feel like I'm wasting my time, but Twitter and Facebook? I feel like I'm in a hostage situation, with that little bird holding a little tweeting gun to my head telling me to keep scrolling. I'm sending you positive vibes and mental reinforcement. We can kick the habit, we must remain strong in the struggle!

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  3. Hello, Maude! I have no idea if you will ever actually read this, I really hope you do. I have wanted to write my entire life. I love comedy, especially your parent's work. I've watched every episode of SNL that I can possibly get my hands on and I have always dreamed of working for your dad one day. I just wanted to tell you that no matter the dream, you can achieve it. I think you are amazing and especially at 14! I actually entered an essay contest to be in Funny People, obviously I didn't win. At your age and with the things you have already accomplished, it's pretty cool. Just never give up, never read into the hype and I know that you will continue to grow! I hope you get there and my son will grow up to watch and read the things you write one day! Thanks for always entertaining me throughout the day. You may have your reasons to hate twitter, which are the same as my own, but you keep me laughing! Don't go anywhere! Thanks, Ashley Poole

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  4. This is pretty true. But Twitter hasn't kept me from updating my blog. School has and not using my time wisely when I'm not thinking about school. I never have a set thing that distracts me. I just get distracted.

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  5. This is true not only for you but for some many people out there, including me. Thanks for such an insightful description of our dark side on social media, but as human beings, we need society and we need to learn with our dark side.

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  6. Me too. As well as Twitter there's Pinterest, blog hits, Facebook likes on posts, likes on Facebook comments... so many different ways to get head-pats AND kicks in the shins nowadays.

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  7. This is so true. Just the other day I spent literally 30 minutes thinking of something funny to tweet to Seth Rogen... I ended up tweeting a picture of my cat (I know, what the fuck, right?). I like how you said that you like twitter because reading about how the crazy things other people do make you feel normal. That is so true. You're so insightful for someone your age. Anyways um, I just started a blog and you should check it out if you want !

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  8. You are so right. I have whole days go by I was "too busy" to do anything but all I did was check my phone and catch up on TV. Makes my brain hurt but I don't stop. I wish I had never joined facebook or twitter, but I'm not going to stop using either. I hate that those sites make it easier to be an a-hole to people you don't know, it's too bad you sometimes become a target. You sound awesome!

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  9. This is why I don't understand why there was such a huge outpouring of grief when Steve Jobs died. Yes, he was a father, a husband, whose life was taken at a young age. Yes, he was damn good at his job. But the bottom line is that he was a rich white dude whose inventions had the power to isolate as well as connect.

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  10. What an admirable post. Seriously, Maude, you're such an intelligent and insightful 14-year-old. I feel the exact same way- I also used to frequently write short stories and poems as a child, but suddenly got warped into a social network world where constantly checking your facebook or twitter became essential, and dare I say it, normal. Keep writing, I honestly do enjoy your posts!

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  11. wow. i couldnt stop reading you are an incredible teenager, and im sure whatever it is that you want to do you'll be great at it.
    greetings.

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  12. I feel ya, babe! Sometimes when I'm trying to type something out on my blog and my brain isn't cooperating or it seems like the words just aren't coming out right, I find myself wanting to go back on Twitter because it just seems easier to type in phrases. Sometimes I think Twitter is slowly killing my brain cells. Haha!

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  13. Great read Maude, the internet has been rotting my brain since I was 14. I always feel like I'm going to miss something when none of it's really important especially now that I have a wife and three young children. Real relationships are what matters and not social media. A blog is different though because it is essentially technology's replacement of a journal. You write incredibly well, thanks for your thoughts.

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  14. I am also falling out of love with Twitter... It helps that I have a retro iPhone 3 which takes ages to load. I am also falling out of love with Facebook and Instagram and computers, and gadgets in general.

    On my drive home today I looked up at the Toluca Hills and I found my eyes wouldn't focus. My eyes have been trained to look at a screen 6-12 inches from my face. In the future I know we're all going to have crossed-eyes, furrowed brows and have to wear thick glasses (and by then thick glasses will be 'out').

    I'm guessing it will be the year 2020, because that would be just too cruel (reminding us that our vision used to be 20/20).

    I know we have to save trees and everything, but I think I might just print out your blog, read it, and then recycle the paper.

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  15. Twitter is not good for me, but I keep hanging on. Great read.

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  16. I was brainstorming some predictions for 2013 with my friend and the one that I am sure will come true is that FB will continue to grow but people will spend less time on it. People will slowly come to realize that relationships sustained mostly on FB are not relationships at all; they are more like transactions. Think about the best relationships with people in your life: are they sustained on FB or with real bodies and blood cells?

    Keep up the good thinking Maude.

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  17. The ending should be more like

    But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

    not even close…

    not even a little bit…

    not even at all.

    Bps. Blame it on smartphones.

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  18. I like this article so much! Also I recognize a few things from my own experiences.
    Maybe you just have to accept the fact that there always are good and some bad things about everything and you always going to have fans and unfortunately haters too.

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